Catholic life helps me as a person

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Since baptism and going to mass every Sunday I feel a better person for it.

I switch my mind off in mass don’t think at all ,I do mass and listen and pray, after mass I feel warm ,calm and at peace,I feel mass helps heal and guide you through difficulties in life.

After baptism we were physically visited by the holy Spirit which is a white Dove.

I feel Jesus and Mary are guided me and giving me self control ,I always had spending difficulty because of issues in life ,when you lack social life and boyfriend ,you need something to fill that space shopping did that for me.

Slowly I’m getting better with money ,I’m targeting to get my account over a thousand by June ,there’s no need to shop all the time ,odd occasion I like to treat myself ,but these days most my shopping is stuff I need so it’s really maturing. Jesus is giving me self control.

Life in the modern world can be difficult ,it’s hard not to get angry or annoyed especially in the UK with all our issues.

Religion helps if I can switch my mind of focus on the Lord ect I am then calm and at peace ,try not to let things get to me ,because anger leads to hate ,hate leads to suffering and the negatives of anger make you as a person feel worse and people around you feel worse.

Positives are always good it gives you motivation,but if someone says “no you can’t do that” or “you haven’t got a clue what you’re doing” it affects you and you feel like you don’t want to because of criticism . Positives motivate you .

In work if you have a very critical boss you work less ,but if you have a positive boss you work over 100%

What it feels like to still be single near 40

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I am edging closer to 40 ,will be 40 in September ,I have official been single forever ,and not had sex ever!!

I have been rejected by all men ,even one who fell for me then rejected I have been rejected by my soulmate .

Inside it feels horrible ,leaves you thinking what’s wrong with you,? Why so much bad luck? What evil have I done to deserve so much rejection and pain? Am I ugly ?

I have done nothing wrong but be an honest caring loving person always been nice to people and given them love and made them feel good…in return they brake my heart leave me crying in bed this I’ve been doing now all my life…for once in my life I’d like happiness and love ,loyalty and friendship and passion ,never had that ever…why don’t you like me??

Cricket distroyed

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I saw an advert on TV last night for The Ashes…..kind of …it’s not The Ashes any more it’s The Men’s Ashes and The Women’s Ashes.The World has gone bonkers .

The Ashes is a traditional match England VS Australia ,the ashes are said to be of wickets from a match long past and has been a tradition for many years.

The Women’s Ashes is made up for the new world of WOKE and propaganda all over TV and sports .Women’s ashes they probably just burned some bras and said ..”right this the women’s ashes “no history behind it whatsoever .

Sadly all sport in our country now has propaganda and pushing this on to you that you HAVE to believe….but we do not want to and we do not have to only brainwashed people will fall for that.

Blog Of Grumpy Middle Aged woman

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Nearly 40 so getting older ,plus I am British ,and we are the best moaning and complainers in the world.Iam in the mood for moaning.

First sick of people setting fires in their gardens ,I like my window open and to have fresh air and coolness ,currently some selfish neighbour has a fire …..my eyes are stinging and ,I have breathing difficulties which I take nose spray for…..think of others before you set fires.!!!

Bouncing balls and trampolines horrid noises ,bouncing balls is a noise that ends up in your head like the ball is being bounced in your head ughhhh!!!

Noisey neighbours I don’t like your loud beating crappy music ,also turn your voices down the whole street does not need to hear you ,keep everything private in your own space not everyone else’s.

Cannabis smell ….just ban it completely it’s illegal it makes people Gaga and it smells like a toilet drain in a rubbish pile with rotten food on it .

Your reading this thinking I’d hate to live where she lives….your right haha….I just want peace and silence only noises I want to hear is nature maybe the odd car or plane pass by….but that it….and fresh lovely air with no horrid smells.

Things I never understood back in the day

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First I was a huge power ranger fan and had a crush on red ranger Jason.

But what was funny ,is that the Megazord on every programme no matter what….after every battle ,would pose….quite funny really . especially if you watch it back as an adult.

CatDog …Watch the cartoon it’s bout a cat and dog head conjoined …this put all sorts of questions in my head .The fist began how it went to the loo , impossible it had 2 heads and no back bit ,when that cat went off on a date with a girl cat …the dog half was there too..what’s that all about???

Donkey & Dragon , don’t tell me you have not thought about how on earth they….make love ?? This huge massive Dragon and a tiny little donkey I just can’t see it .

The teenagers of Scooby Doo are the oldest teenagers in the world ,they’ve been tennis since the 60s , Maggie Simpson has been a baby forever?

Clifford the big red dog he is huge ….how do you clean up after him poop bags the size of hot air balloons!

Right up to my late teens I thought Cher was a man,until one day in the car ,mum and my brother corrected me “he is a good singer Cher” “SHE SHE SHE” was the reply ,She? My reply “Cher Is a woman Joanna”….I replied “Oh I didn’t know?” I was quite innocent back then and had no clue about transgender or sexes ect ,I just thought everyone was heterosexual.I learnt eventually that there were other things.

I always thought Dame Edna was A real woman ,I watched her show a lot with my brother when we were younger ….had no idea she was Barry Humphreys until I was an adult.

And before you start judging my funny story ,which they are ,mean to be funny .

As a child I never grew up too fast ,I was a child innocent with imagination playing with toys ,not worrying about how I looked or daft nonsense like that ..coz I was a child all I wanted to do was play go on days out and see animals and family that’s it. Don’t grow up to fast kids enjoy being kids don’t worry about adult stuff until you’re an adult ,be innocent and carefree .

Why I haven’t blogged much recently

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I have always believed in God ,Jesus ,Mary and all the unexplained mysteries of this world .I have always had faith and always prayed.

I recently joined a local catholic church and got Baptised in April I have since learnt more and things I did not know about my faith that I never knew before.

Now I go to Mass every Sunday with my Mum & Dad ,I feel more at peace now than ever I have no anger ,hate or jealousy in me at all , just lots of peace love and hope positive feelings and happiness ,I still have sadness and insecurities at times ,but I have feelings and emotions.

I’m still in love with the same man ,still believe he is my soulmate ,but sadly haven’t seen him in person for ages and that gets to me ,coz everyone else friendships are normal and see their friends regularly…still wonder at times about my social and love bad luck??

Single Women Don’t have to Have Kids!

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Recently on Twitter there has been some uproar about people saying “Single Women HAVE to have kids”.It’s rubbish no one has to do anything they don’t want to do.

As a single woman who does not want kids Id like to explain my reasons for not having or wanting kids…then we will get on to the nasty people on Twitter!

I’m 39 I have Asburgers ,I have a history of depression ,stress and anxiety.y9u cannot have kids with these I know for a fact I’d brake down in to a huge depression and probably end up I’ll in hospital.Also I have been single since I was born in 1983 .I don’t have much money to my name ,I can’t afford a house or anything expensive so I won’t be able to afford kids.Also If I did end up with a man he would have to be single with no kids from past relationships…..I really do not want any of that at all,I’d rather have a partner who has no kids no baggage no physco exs.just a nice clean slate.These reasons should make perfect sense to anyone with a brain!!

Now to the trolls and bullies ,I noticed some nasty people put comments that are totally sexist and so old fashioned cob webs were floating on them.There is no need for nasty comments you cannot bully women or force them into being with child …that would be classed as rape you stupied idiots!

Some men were saying women were put on earth to give birth….well not all of us you historically old old people from 1800s ,we have personal choice and reasons for not wanting kids ,plus no money and illness that make us unable to be good mum’s,and there are some bad parents out there …..DO NOT TELL ME there isn’t becous6 there is ….you seem to forget about that when making your sexist old comments!!

No human is perfect and some people who have kids who are on drugs ,have metal health and other issues not all but some have no idea how to treat there kids ,also there are abusive parents….so don’t make out having kids is happy ever after for everyone ….becouse it’s not …..some people really cannot cope with the stress.

It’s your choice ladies if you don’t want kids don’t have them don’t let these losers force you into things you don’t want to do!

Stop cannabis now I’m fed up of it 😭😭😭

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Dear Sir

I’am a 38 year old who has Asburgers and allgy issues which cause breathing difficulty at times.
I’m asking begging please stop people smoking cannabis and selling in Manchester I live in the northern moor with my mum and dad and it’s driving us insane and effecting us.
Tonight I have had no sleep because a selfish neighbour is smoking cannabis the smell its awful . I’d like to breathe fresh air…not drugs through my window.please get police on Northern moor stopping the drug deals ,they are happing on motorcycle and in vans all the time ,stop people smoking this drug it effects my health and my parents ,we hate the smell and effect it has ,all we want is fresh air and sleep.
I feel it’s bad in Northern Moor most people in this area smoke it and deal it ,it’s so awful please please help get rid of it and it’s awful smell put a stop to this evil drug please,for us people who just want fresh air and peace please I’m asking you .
I don’t know what else to say other then help.

Britain heading towards Hunger Games

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People think the British are Rich….I can tell you we are not rich ,the only rich people are greedy mps taking from the poor to make the rich richer …highly unfair.

Britain had been hit really badly by prices rises on everything ,people who don’t have the money are suffering some are commiting suicide that’s how bad it is.

With petrol ,food tax’s ect Britain is going back to medieval times it’s awful people are struggling …really we are a 3rd country the rich are greedy and get richer they don’t help the poor ,they should they have more money then they need!!.

If you have seen the Hunger Games movies this is what Britain is turning into ,it’s heartbreaking power and greed is evil it’s an awful thing that distroys life’s …if I had more money then I’d help someone out who really really needed it.

But I’am not I’m almost 40 (next year) living with my parents and could never afford to rent or buy a house ,if it wasn’t for my parents ,I’d most likely be homeless or really struggling to have a life ,I have Aspurgers and have disability which is 400 a month ,if I had electric gas ,tv license rent I’d have 0 ,you cannot live off that.

I don’t want to be a millionaire ,but I’d like just enough not to worry about my bank balance I’m not greedy I buy 2nd clothes .

I know that some modern women think money is everything and all they want from a man is his wallet…sad cows!! All I’ve ever want was love ,sex passion friendship ,my heart is what I follow, What we call modern Britain ….really is not corruption greedy rich mps are bringing Britain right back to the medieval times. Life is not easy if you are British and poor ….it is not the land of milk and honey ,what we need is a Robin Hood To take from the rich and give to the poor …the rich do not need any more money they’ve got enough …start helping people out.

Need Art Group back In my life 😭

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Since stupid COVID my art group closed ,and with that my social life and life as I knew it went back to how it was before art group.

At Art group every Tuesday it was the highlight of my week I got to socialize,meet people and have a laugh and banter I miss everyone so much.We had such good times ,I was so happy.

Over the COVID years to stay happy I keep my sad feelings bottled up that includes missing art group and missing my special friend who texts me alot …but we need to start meeting in person again😭💔.I try to stay positive and happy as that is how I’d rather be ad life’s too short.

But every now and again I need to cry and think about these things and last night I did that,I have always found making friends hard and also my love life has always been at 0 ,Nearing 40 it gets to me worse than ever I’ve missed out on so.

In this modern era with WOKE people it’s so much harder to make friends as people get offended by everything ,you’re constantly walking on egg shells because you can’t say anything.

I’m from old school as you have seen in my blogs , I believe freedom of speech , expressing and discussing options in an adult mature way Woke people don’t do this if they don’t like your opinion they call you names get nasty and mean…very childish.

I’m on the search for a new social group in case my much loved art group does not start up again, it’s a hard search ….but important as I need a decent social life and to enjoy life and have good times because we only get one chance at life.

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