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Currently ill

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I am currently ill with

vasculitis and Deviated septum ,the Deviated septum I’ve had a while just it has got worse I can hardly breath on the right side of my nose.

On the left side of my nose I have had a nose bleed since September which is part of the vasculitis.

Narrow blood vessels have been infected and caused me to have blisters which looks like from the plague ughhhh and a rash that won’t go away.

My rash has nearly disappeared 4 times each time coming back worse,the blisters are so unbearable and sensitive

I’ve sometimes been crying because it affects you mentally as well as physically because you can’t exercise or do much walking ,hot showers are off because they all set the rash off.

I can’t shave my legs because if I catch the razor on the blisters I’d be with a bacterial infection which is worse ,I feel quite down it’s all upsetting I miss my normal life I miss my weights and being able to do things.

Hope it gets better soon if anyone else has suffered from this please comment below with outcomes and happy positive ones hopefully.

Baptism Is A Commitment ,Not to be used wrongly

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Sadly I have noticed people using baptism for the wrong reasons ,they have not been taking it to be a part of the faith and of the Catholic church .

They are misusing a gift for Lord Jesus and God and are using it for gains Some are using it just for marriage ,some are using it for schools or to get in higher places.

This is very sad news,and I also don’t like the fact they lie to our Priests ,who lie to a priest? You must never lie to a man of god, you must respect him.

I got Baptised last year into the Catholic church ,I have always believed and had faith ,I enjoy going to mass I pray and feel close to the Lord ,being catholic is a special part of my life .

Sadly these others who get baptised just use the baptism for gains ….very upsetting .

I feel so strongly about this matter I have Written to Pope Francis

I am asking for strict rules for you to be baptised , because it is not to be used  wrongly it is a gift from the lord it is a way of life and a commitment ,I feel you must have strong faith and commitment to the catholic church Lord God ,Jesus holy spirit and Virgin Mary .

If Anyone reading this blog plans on being Baptised to use it as a sin for gains and higher things in life ….please think again and do not get Baptised you are being unfaithful to the religion our priests who by the way work extremely hard ,the Pope and The lord.

Please do not waste their time do not lie to them search your soul and ask why for the right or wrong reasons.

I don’t like people misusing a gift for God to fulfill selfish needs or wants it ,is not for that .

Baptism  is for people who truly believe and have faith and love and commitment to the Catholic church.

I remember after being baptised for a couple of months my mind was clear and I was at peace there was serenity and warmth in my heart my mind was clear ,everything was at peace ,I felt the gift from Jesus on me and it was one of the most amazing feelings I’ve ever had.

Also we were visited by the Holy Spirit ,my Dad and I saw it in our Garden as a white Dove ,it truly was the Holy spirit.

My faith is strong I believe 100 % and the spiritual and miracles ,My wrist for 2 to 3 years was turning into arthritis I was scared I would not do art again I prayed it got better and I got a white cross on my wrist where it was healed.

This is strong faith and belief ,so I ask my readers please only get Baptised if you believe and have faith and commitment to the catholic church .

We can’t all have kids

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As a catholic you would think I would agree with the pope on things.

Not everything he thinks we should all have children and not pet dogs,this does not work for me and other people.

For Example In the past I have suffered stress , depression,panic attacks and anxiety ,if I had kids I would not be able to cope I would end up in hospital with a huge break down so due to stress.

A DOG is much better for me ,I feel relaxed and loved by dogs and they matter alot to me ,they help with my Asperger’s and help me not feel alone and I can talk and be comforted by a dog life without one would be depressing.

Not all women can have kids ,they can’t afford mental health issues ,health issues ,life issues also some people would be bad abusive parents and just shouldn’t have kids.

So no we cannot all go round having kids there are personal issues and loads of other issues .

Sometimes having a pet is better for people and their health ,plus you have a choice it’s your life it’s your body it is up to you ,don’t have people tell you that you HAVE to.

Having children is a lot of effort and hard work and costly not everyone can cope with that ,I’m one that can’t ….I get anxious when kids are noisy and running around I get like this when shops are very crowded I’m.no good with crowds .

And I happily bless dogs and pets if given the right to .

Catholic life helps me as a person

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Since baptism and going to mass every Sunday I feel a better person for it.

I switch my mind off in mass don’t think at all ,I do mass and listen and pray, after mass I feel warm ,calm and at peace,I feel mass helps heal and guide you through difficulties in life.

After baptism we were physically visited by the holy Spirit which is a white Dove.

I feel Jesus and Mary are guided me and giving me self control ,I always had spending difficulty because of issues in life ,when you lack social life and boyfriend ,you need something to fill that space shopping did that for me.

Slowly I’m getting better with money ,I’m targeting to get my account over a thousand by June ,there’s no need to shop all the time ,odd occasion I like to treat myself ,but these days most my shopping is stuff I need so it’s really maturing. Jesus is giving me self control.

Life in the modern world can be difficult ,it’s hard not to get angry or annoyed especially in the UK with all our issues.

Religion helps if I can switch my mind of focus on the Lord ect I am then calm and at peace ,try not to let things get to me ,because anger leads to hate ,hate leads to suffering and the negatives of anger make you as a person feel worse and people around you feel worse.

Positives are always good it gives you motivation,but if someone says “no you can’t do that” or “you haven’t got a clue what you’re doing” it affects you and you feel like you don’t want to because of criticism . Positives motivate you .

In work if you have a very critical boss you work less ,but if you have a positive boss you work over 100%

Single Women Don’t have to Have Kids!

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Recently on Twitter there has been some uproar about people saying “Single Women HAVE to have kids”.It’s rubbish no one has to do anything they don’t want to do.

As a single woman who does not want kids Id like to explain my reasons for not having or wanting kids…then we will get on to the nasty people on Twitter!

I’m 39 I have Asburgers ,I have a history of depression ,stress and anxiety.y9u cannot have kids with these I know for a fact I’d brake down in to a huge depression and probably end up I’ll in hospital.Also I have been single since I was born in 1983 .I don’t have much money to my name ,I can’t afford a house or anything expensive so I won’t be able to afford kids.Also If I did end up with a man he would have to be single with no kids from past relationships…..I really do not want any of that at all,I’d rather have a partner who has no kids no baggage no physco exs.just a nice clean slate.These reasons should make perfect sense to anyone with a brain!!

Now to the trolls and bullies ,I noticed some nasty people put comments that are totally sexist and so old fashioned cob webs were floating on them.There is no need for nasty comments you cannot bully women or force them into being with child …that would be classed as rape you stupied idiots!

Some men were saying women were put on earth to give birth….well not all of us you historically old old people from 1800s ,we have personal choice and reasons for not wanting kids ,plus no money and illness that make us unable to be good mum’s,and there are some bad parents out there …..DO NOT TELL ME there isn’t becous6 there is ….you seem to forget about that when making your sexist old comments!!

No human is perfect and some people who have kids who are on drugs ,have metal health and other issues not all but some have no idea how to treat there kids ,also there are abusive parents….so don’t make out having kids is happy ever after for everyone ….becouse it’s not …..some people really cannot cope with the stress.

It’s your choice ladies if you don’t want kids don’t have them don’t let these losers force you into things you don’t want to do!

Why social distence can’t last forever.

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Put it this way , if social distence goes on any more years we will all go insane and be sex starved Hungary horny mad people.

We are only humans we need to hold hands , hug friends and family comfort the people we love.

We need sex and foreplay ,social distence can go on for years and years it will drive us mad.

Not being physical or being able to playfully flirt with the person your in love with is like being put in a cage.

Things we need back:

Holding hands

Hugs and kisses

Cuddles

Sex

Oral sex

Snogging

that’s why social distenceing can’t last forever , I need all of that ,you need all of that We need all of that , hopefully face masks will go and distenceing will go and life will return to normal.

Coved19 March 2020

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Week 1 &2

Week 1 : My art group where I socialise do Art and meet with my best friend in canteen, was cancelled.

This made me feel very sad intact I burst into tears , my fear is never seeing my friends or art group again.

Tuesdays Art group gave me happyness and my friend he gives me lots of happyness if I lost him I’d die.

Week 2 Mum & I always go to Hampshire in March to visit family ,also have a few days out.

1st change we saw was the service station at Warwick was almost empty.

On a Normal day the service station would be full.

Supermarkets have been mad to much ques and people panic buying, There is no need for this .

If you just did your normal shopping and didn’t panic , we would still have lots of stuff and not have run out .

Victoria Park Hampshire was so busy , becouse we are all aloud to go for healthy walks in parks , I loved seeing all the happy doggies having walks as I love dogs.

My only fears at the moment are

  1. My Dad who has underlying health issues getting coved19
  2. Not seeing Chris again
  3. Not seeing friends in art group again
  4. Normality and being able to live a normal life going for cafe shopping days out ect ect .
  5. That’s all that’s worrying me .
  6. I urge you all to think of others and don’t panic buy and KEEP CALM AND CARRY ON!!!!!

YOUR NEVER ALONE WHEN YOU DIE .

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I want to comfort people who have lost family and friends to Covid 19.

Many people have died but come back , and have told us of what happens when you die.

Please do not worry , your loved ones were and are never alone (it’s up to you if you believe or not).

But spirits of relatives and Friends who may have died in the past ….or some cases pets watch over us.

When it is our time someone we knew in our life joins us and takes us to the next world .

When your soul leaves your physical body the pain is gone , becouse the pain was in your body not your spirit or soul.

My Mum’s best friend who sadly passed away of Cancer way before Covid 19 , became free of her pain and she got her hair back , I hear her voice sometimes,I hear spirits angels they guide and protect.

No one is ever completely alone ,you have spirits and angel as company who are there for you , once you die you are happy in the next life and your pain is gone, you can stay in heaven or come back to earth as a ghost and wait for your soulmate to join you and watch over your loved ones.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE , THEY ARE NOT ALONE , NOBODY IS ALONE.

Coved19 week 6 First week of April.

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First this week Nan called to say Step Grandad was put into hospital .

Clocks went forward so I’ve been waking up at 10am not 9Am ,Still not used to the times as yet.

Friday Step Grandad died in Hospital from Cover 19 after only 3 days.

I was told today by my parents this morning.

2020 is turning out to be a very slow depressing year , that’s taking members of everyone’s family’s away.

It reminds me of a apocalypse so far more people are dieing each day and it has don’t disappeared as yet.

This means we can’t go back to normal life yet,the love of my life says he will hug me when and If we next meet , so I’ll look forward to being held in his strong arms.

Nothing much else has happened being stuck at home only so much can happen.

Coved19 week 4 March 2020

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Now UK is practically a ghost town EVERYTHING except supermarkets and pharmacys is shut.

On the way back from Hampshire on Sunday the motorways were like country roads empty or two or three cars.

The service station was empty.

Now I’am staying in and also in my garden for sunshine and fresh air.

Luckily I have loads of arty hobbies to keep me busy , plus books to read and a exercise bike so won’t get bored.

I’m taking the approach of people during the 1940s World War Two times.Just staying calm and taking one day at a time , it’s easy that way , becouse we do not know yet when this will be over.

Also found a app called Chapters which is basically erotic and romantic story’s which I’m hooked on right now.

It gives me that excitement in my life I’ve never really had. When your a woman of my age with lack of love life these novels help a little… dreams that you want in reality.

Intact I’m not going to go there I’m not far of 40 and the thought of lack of love life depresses me, the mid life crisis.

Just take one day at a time be distracted by hobbies carry on with a normal life at home and carry on ….Homes where the heart is and when your not there you miss it.

So enjoy your home becouse it’s your home.