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Baptism Is A Commitment ,Not to be used wrongly

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Sadly I have noticed people using baptism for the wrong reasons ,they have not been taking it to be a part of the faith and of the Catholic church .

They are misusing a gift for Lord Jesus and God and are using it for gains Some are using it just for marriage ,some are using it for schools or to get in higher places.

This is very sad news,and I also don’t like the fact they lie to our Priests ,who lie to a priest? You must never lie to a man of god, you must respect him.

I got Baptised last year into the Catholic church ,I have always believed and had faith ,I enjoy going to mass I pray and feel close to the Lord ,being catholic is a special part of my life .

Sadly these others who get baptised just use the baptism for gains ….very upsetting .

I feel so strongly about this matter I have Written to Pope Francis

I am asking for strict rules for you to be baptised , because it is not to be used  wrongly it is a gift from the lord it is a way of life and a commitment ,I feel you must have strong faith and commitment to the catholic church Lord God ,Jesus holy spirit and Virgin Mary .

If Anyone reading this blog plans on being Baptised to use it as a sin for gains and higher things in life ….please think again and do not get Baptised you are being unfaithful to the religion our priests who by the way work extremely hard ,the Pope and The lord.

Please do not waste their time do not lie to them search your soul and ask why for the right or wrong reasons.

I don’t like people misusing a gift for God to fulfill selfish needs or wants it ,is not for that .

Baptism  is for people who truly believe and have faith and love and commitment to the Catholic church.

I remember after being baptised for a couple of months my mind was clear and I was at peace there was serenity and warmth in my heart my mind was clear ,everything was at peace ,I felt the gift from Jesus on me and it was one of the most amazing feelings I’ve ever had.

Also we were visited by the Holy Spirit ,my Dad and I saw it in our Garden as a white Dove ,it truly was the Holy spirit.

My faith is strong I believe 100 % and the spiritual and miracles ,My wrist for 2 to 3 years was turning into arthritis I was scared I would not do art again I prayed it got better and I got a white cross on my wrist where it was healed.

This is strong faith and belief ,so I ask my readers please only get Baptised if you believe and have faith and commitment to the catholic church .

Rejection affects you all your life

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I have been rejected and judged by people since I was a kid.

I remember sitting on a cold step in playing ground crying and alone ,not noticing the bell to come in and still sitting there in silence…..this is rejection.

I’ve been single forever ,I have never had a relationship never had sex never had companionship ….sadly missed out on these wonderful things ….not by choice,by other people’s choices

I’m now 40 and the rejection is not just of men but lack of friends to and social life is still with my hurting It affects you your whole life .Emotionally it does not completely go as it is still happening.

I noticed since my late to mid 20s I lost all hope ,I don’t get hopeful because I just expect the worst ,Because sadly that is what happens ,I have no hope left in me ,sadly because I know I’ll be rejected and worst is always going to happen to me.

Then I ask myself ,am I ugly? What is wrong with me? Why does a man not want me? Why do people not want to be friends?

I try to be a good person I treat people as I’d like to be be treated my self ,I have good manners ,show people I care ….yet here I am 40 years old unmarried no social life apart from at church and in text messages???

Why ? What’s wrong with me? Why can’t people love me like I love them? I feel cursed like I’ve done something really really evil to suffer this the whole of my life .

At age 28 I said to myself I condemn myself to my fate I will most likely die old and alone and have a poorpas grave …if I’m really lucky I’ll have a faithful dog by my side.

But that is where I see my future ,this is also why dogs are important to my life they love you they are there they bring you happiness when no one else will.

Things I’ve lost: HOPE ,LUCK ,HAPPYNESS

Things I have to give : Love , Loyalty,faith,compaction,friendship

I have a lot of love in my heart I try to tell family and anyone I care about I love them because I will regret it if I don’t and if something bad happens it’s important to tell people you love them as it brings happiness.

Not being told your loved or cared for you get tears rejection pain and cry on your pillow endless nights ….I’m 40 and still do that I’ve been doing that since I can remember.

I can only dream of what it’s like to be loved by a man and that is most likely all it ever will be …just a dream that will never happen….it’s painful knowing this future and not experiencing having love from someone ….it would probably make me the happiest woman on earth if it did happen..

But until then sadness will always dwell with me.

How you know your soulmate

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I found myself as a person , finally when I met him. Many years of stress ,rejection and being bullied clouded my mind teens and onwards I was very lost and could not find myself or know myself too well.

October 16 2015 I joined Wild Colours Art group 2016/2017. I met him bare with me ,some of this is complex and hard to explain. There is a strong spiritual feeling of chemistry between us I’ve never experienced with anyone else .

We share the same humor and banter ,and he was the first man ever to drop his jaw when he saw me.I see in his eyes my soulmate warmth caring but also missing me in him.

I noticed the empty space in my soul that had hurt me for many years ,was filled up and has never returned ,my love for him makes me feel young ,happy and cheerful.

We bounce off each other’s advice I have given him in the past ,he returns to me as advice ,we have similar lives ever so slightly , our disabilities are similar and we should not be ashamed of them.

His eyes tell me a thousand and one things not just about him but about my self ,my soul senses when he is feeling down and when he is happy ,my dreams tell me when he thinks of me ,and what he would want to say to me ,but can’t .

We both have paths leading in the same direction ,and I hope again to bump head on into him,because I love him so much the warmth from the love brings out happiness and youthfulness ,that happiness he gives me is like a potion of youth,I know I’ll love him til forever in heaven and whatever’s next it life, he is part of me I am part of him .

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What it feels like to still be single near 40

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I am edging closer to 40 ,will be 40 in September ,I have official been single forever ,and not had sex ever!!

I have been rejected by all men ,even one who fell for me then rejected I have been rejected by my soulmate .

Inside it feels horrible ,leaves you thinking what’s wrong with you,? Why so much bad luck? What evil have I done to deserve so much rejection and pain? Am I ugly ?

I have done nothing wrong but be an honest caring loving person always been nice to people and given them love and made them feel good…in return they brake my heart leave me crying in bed this I’ve been doing now all my life…for once in my life I’d like happiness and love ,loyalty and friendship and passion ,never had that ever…why don’t you like me??

Why I haven’t blogged much recently

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I have always believed in God ,Jesus ,Mary and all the unexplained mysteries of this world .I have always had faith and always prayed.

I recently joined a local catholic church and got Baptised in April I have since learnt more and things I did not know about my faith that I never knew before.

Now I go to Mass every Sunday with my Mum & Dad ,I feel more at peace now than ever I have no anger ,hate or jealousy in me at all , just lots of peace love and hope positive feelings and happiness ,I still have sadness and insecurities at times ,but I have feelings and emotions.

I’m still in love with the same man ,still believe he is my soulmate ,but sadly haven’t seen him in person for ages and that gets to me ,coz everyone else friendships are normal and see their friends regularly…still wonder at times about my social and love bad luck??

Rick’s Spirit visits me

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I have a history of Spirits ,When I was a young girl while in my bed I saw ghost of my Nan after she died.

As a teenager I always felt someone was in my bedroom with me ,It was Grandad watching over me I think becouse I was going through hard time.

In Grandad s flat in Hampshire me and Marion ( mum’s best friend ,felt every thing go freezing cold ,this was Mary nans. Sister.

When Marion passed away she sent messages for my mum to me to pass to her.

And other things I get only good spirits which is a relief. But since my favorite Rock star passed I’ve had him visit me , we have a connection ,I used to give him gifts .

Most recently it has been my birthday ,last night he turned up in my dream ,he wished me a happy birthday and gave me a kiss and a hug . It was lovley ,I told Rick I had met Francis recently, He was wearing one of his white look54 tshirts was just so nice ,after this dream I woke up warm and red-faced but. Very happy.

Spirits of passed loved ones and ancestors do visit us in dreams it’s one of the mericals of the unexplained afterlife and spiritual world ,it is also a positive becouse you know that your loved one is happy.

I know some of you who read this will be none believers and just wash it off as some fantasy dream. I can tell you it is not as I don’t have many fantasy dreams ,they eather don’t make any sense or are dream with meaning ,or something of the future of visit from spirits.

Like a dream I had couple of months back it’s only a minor one this but made sense , I saw inside a church and a humming bird , next day mum mentioned a humming bird and the church was on Endeavour episode. It really can be a minor as that or full blown like future places I’ve seen on vists in North Wales and the changes to Sale town center .

Sale Town center was a reccuring dream which has now stopped becouse the changes I saw , the dreams were over a couple of years ,they have stopped becouse Sale town is now charging like it showed in the dream. I have a very open mind and believe in spirit ghosts predictions aliens the lot becouse the unexplained is in our world with us and in us.

Lost Soul wondering aimlessly

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I was told by the spirits he was the one , in 2016 they kept telling me he is your soulmate.

I tried to ignore them because I didn’t want to get hurt or rejected.But I felt A special chemistry bound with him , he the only who has ever looked at me in a special way and shown interest.

Yet he rejects me 💔💔 I’m so confused ,I remember all the little things the signs, the time he saw me with a new hair cut his jaw dropped and he stuttered , Flower emojis he sent …he even sent flirty texts.

He held my hand in a special way when we had a deep talk together ,he removed my bag strap when it got stuck on a chair. He kept the paintings I made him ,he checked out my bum at the pub 😄.

But yet with out chemistry and me finding myself when I found him , my empty soul feeling warm and complete….he rejects me???

In 2016 I did my very very best to ignore the spirits as I didn’t want rejection and heart brake but they just wouldn’t have it….think one is my grandad and the other Rick Parfitt (spirit bit later not 2016 .2019 -now…..repenting I think ?

I have so much special little memory’s of him that matter so much he is the love of my life ,I try looking at other men but they are not him…he is so important I’ll never meet another perfect guy like him he is my soulmate ,If I can’t be with him I will love him still but I will die a virgin lonely with a dog coz he is the one.

I love our banter ,I miss our banter ,I love him calling me nicknames like misses and joking and flirting with me ,I love his hugs his personality his charm good looks ….love hurts ..

Iam now a soul wondering aimlessly confused and lost ,I will never love again no one can be him…from now on only lust and pureity….with me most likely pureity no one wants me 📿🙏 I will never get over him just always love him even when iam a old lonely lady with my faithful dog…that’s how I see my future …when my parents sadly pass in years ….I will have just me and a dog …..😭😭💔 .

You wonder about rejection , My life has been rejection it effects you emotionally , rejection is what I’ve had my whole life asking people out trying to make friends ect.All the time I end up lonely and feel scared of groups incase I’m judged…it’s not easy you also have no support just family support…..but when your family goes…. there is just you……this is one reason I wanted me right out of many….now what???2😭💔

I’m a lonely soul wondering aimlessly confused ……….

YOUR NEVER ALONE WHEN YOU DIE .

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I want to comfort people who have lost family and friends to Covid 19.

Many people have died but come back , and have told us of what happens when you die.

Please do not worry , your loved ones were and are never alone (it’s up to you if you believe or not).

But spirits of relatives and Friends who may have died in the past ….or some cases pets watch over us.

When it is our time someone we knew in our life joins us and takes us to the next world .

When your soul leaves your physical body the pain is gone , becouse the pain was in your body not your spirit or soul.

My Mum’s best friend who sadly passed away of Cancer way before Covid 19 , became free of her pain and she got her hair back , I hear her voice sometimes,I hear spirits angels they guide and protect.

No one is ever completely alone ,you have spirits and angel as company who are there for you , once you die you are happy in the next life and your pain is gone, you can stay in heaven or come back to earth as a ghost and wait for your soulmate to join you and watch over your loved ones.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE , THEY ARE NOT ALONE , NOBODY IS ALONE.

Crappy Valentine’s Day

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I’am the most Unluckyist person in the whole world. First my love life in a nut shell,

Teens: Single , rejected

20s: Single ,Rejected

30s Still single , Still a virgin at 36 ….but with a difference , I finally met my Soulmate in 2015 .

I’ve known for years he likes me it’s so flipping obvious signs of why,

1. He blushes

2. He looks and smiles at me

3.looks away ( he is shy)

4.awkward silences

5.copies my moves

6.looks at me

7.struggles when talking to me

8.shows off acts funny

9.treats me different from the other women.

That’s some If I put them all we will be here forever.

He has been in love with me 4 years but won’t admit it, which is awful , becouse this is such a nice special feeling .

I appreciate it becouse No one has ever loved me befour it’s means alot, I cannot understand why he hides ( TRIES TO HIDE BUT FAILS AS I KNOW) his feelings and does not want me to know.

It’s very frustrating and confusing .He is a sensative ,careing warm guy brown eyes which have a sparkle to them , his eyes show he loves me and he is me soulmate.

Any How I’am currently 36 years old a virgin. Never been woed romanced , never had passion , only sex I’ve seen is on HBOs on TV and Internet ….and sex books.

It gets wrose as you get older February the 14th depresses you ,I would love and be so proud to call him my boyfriend I love him so much , day he finally says he loves me will be the happyest day of my life , but for now and for last 4 years of knowing him I have suffered.

So to all men if you are hidding your feelings and not telling a woman your in love with her.

TELL HER , TELL HER JUST TELL HER .If you don’t tell her it will just eat you up inside and won’t help your life or hers .

Being in love makes you feel young and happy embrace it , feelings emotions are great wonderful things life’s to short , if you are in love say it ….yes it’s a risk but it is a risk wroth taking just do it!!!!

Spiritual , religious and life after physical world

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I have been spiritual most of my life , first experience seeing my nan wave goodbye of staircase as a little girl ( that young was scared).

Teen experiences when I was depressed and stressed , I always felt like someone was in the room with me.

This was my guardian angel my beloved Grandad Barker , he protected me from myself , I was very depressed he kept me alive.

Over many years also have physic dreams , these see many things from places I may see in future ( which become dajavu ).Others are of people of events.

Also more recently since passing of mums best friend ( also spiritual), she gave message to me ( mental medium ) through my mind) saying goodbye and she was ok.

Soulmate part well I met him 2015 but again Grandad Barker helped me on this one he showed me flashing images and kept going on at me ” he is your soulmate,”.

I didn’t want to believe it coz I’ve been rejected by men all my life , 2016 while in Wales I just gave in , hopelessly I. Love …not with him yet …But my soul feel complete and I …can’t really explain the rest , it’s complex and spiritual .

I have a special connection with him, I see so much in his eyes ,We both get similar emotions together , our humour is similar .I love him so much I just hope we get together soon befour we get to old😭.

I believe in ghosts angel’s spirits, inside our physical body is our soul/spirit ,it is there and when your physical body dies this soul/spirit goes to another world of souls or stays as a ghost here to pass on messages , haunts ect.

All the above is connected .