Author: JoBarker

I'm a artist who lives in South Manchester , I live with my Parents My blogs are about my life experiences ,options and things I need to get of my chest ,I have Aspurgers it is part of who I'am,I'am a Status Quo fan ,I love dogs my favorite breed in Cavalier king Charles spaniel ,I love doing exercise and my artworks .

YOUR NEVER ALONE WHEN YOU DIE .

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I want to comfort people who have lost family and friends to Covid 19.

Many people have died but come back , and have told us of what happens when you die.

Please do not worry , your loved ones were and are never alone (it’s up to you if you believe or not).

But spirits of relatives and Friends who may have died in the past ….or some cases pets watch over us.

When it is our time someone we knew in our life joins us and takes us to the next world .

When your soul leaves your physical body the pain is gone , becouse the pain was in your body not your spirit or soul.

My Mum’s best friend who sadly passed away of Cancer way before Covid 19 , became free of her pain and she got her hair back , I hear her voice sometimes,I hear spirits angels they guide and protect.

No one is ever completely alone ,you have spirits and angel as company who are there for you , once you die you are happy in the next life and your pain is gone, you can stay in heaven or come back to earth as a ghost and wait for your soulmate to join you and watch over your loved ones.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE , THEY ARE NOT ALONE , NOBODY IS ALONE.

The Sex toys just Don’t do it for me

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Being a virgin for most of my life sadly , And 36 still no boyfriend ….got a nearly boyfriend he just needs to admit his feelings to me.

Anyhow Through out my life to get a feel of the sex I’ve never had I’ve been reading erotic book , had fantasy’s.

In my late teens early twenties I was a rock chick and had very erotic fantasy’s of Rock stars.

Richie sambora and John bon Jovi sometimes together

Paul Stanley Kiss and other member of kiss threesome or just Paul.

Rick Parfitt Francis Rossi threesome or Just Rick.

Then Had fantasys of James May from Top Gear to ,Snape from Harry Potter. Jack Sparrow and Jareth The Goblin King…phew.

I orgasamed in the fantasy s they were hot.

But my dildos all big 7inch ones seem to do nothing for me ( I use this size due to my very tight meow!!!

Thrust them fast and not one orgasam , don’t feel turned on by them.

I guess I’m only turned on by real men , especially the man I’m in love with I wish I could have him I need that closeness , love and hot sex.

Coved19 week 6 First week of April.

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First this week Nan called to say Step Grandad was put into hospital .

Clocks went forward so I’ve been waking up at 10am not 9Am ,Still not used to the times as yet.

Friday Step Grandad died in Hospital from Cover 19 after only 3 days.

I was told today by my parents this morning.

2020 is turning out to be a very slow depressing year , that’s taking members of everyone’s family’s away.

It reminds me of a apocalypse so far more people are dieing each day and it has don’t disappeared as yet.

This means we can’t go back to normal life yet,the love of my life says he will hug me when and If we next meet , so I’ll look forward to being held in his strong arms.

Nothing much else has happened being stuck at home only so much can happen.

Coved19 Quratine week5 …I think

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It will be April in one day , So far I’ve been entraining myself with erotic novels.

Makes me want sex even more , but only with the man I love. Sadly I’ve never experienced sex or a relationship as yet and I’m almost 40.

Its so depressing I want a orgasam I want to be pleased and dirty and I want please a man .

Let’s not go to my none existent frustrating love life …and the chase of the man I’m in love with ugh.

Apart from that I’ve been doing my art , going in garden for fresh air and using my exercise bike.

There’s only so much you can do right now.

I’ve never experienced anything like this , the world completely shut down , how long will we stay sane who knows.

The clocks went forward Saturday …..but I got it wrong thought it was Sunday. So woke up late on Sunday and today still jetlagged.

Trying to get used to longer days and clocks forward , not there yet as it was nearly 10am when I woke up.

Erm think that’s it.

Coved19 week 4 March 2020

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Now UK is practically a ghost town EVERYTHING except supermarkets and pharmacys is shut.

On the way back from Hampshire on Sunday the motorways were like country roads empty or two or three cars.

The service station was empty.

Now I’am staying in and also in my garden for sunshine and fresh air.

Luckily I have loads of arty hobbies to keep me busy , plus books to read and a exercise bike so won’t get bored.

I’m taking the approach of people during the 1940s World War Two times.Just staying calm and taking one day at a time , it’s easy that way , becouse we do not know yet when this will be over.

Also found a app called Chapters which is basically erotic and romantic story’s which I’m hooked on right now.

It gives me that excitement in my life I’ve never really had. When your a woman of my age with lack of love life these novels help a little… dreams that you want in reality.

Intact I’m not going to go there I’m not far of 40 and the thought of lack of love life depresses me, the mid life crisis.

Just take one day at a time be distracted by hobbies carry on with a normal life at home and carry on ….Homes where the heart is and when your not there you miss it.

So enjoy your home becouse it’s your home.

Corovirus / breastmilk could save us

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I was watching BBC news channel last night and a Doctor on it said Corovirus could not be transmitted through breastmilk.

Breast Milk has lots of cells , good bacteria , amino Acids that help baby ,I was wondering if the cells in breast milk prevent and fight of Corovirus .

If they are strong enough to fight it of maybe they could make sum pill of medicine from breastmilk becouse of what is in it , with its possabiltys of flighting off the virus , the cells and immunity in it.

It is just a theory and idea I’am not a scientist or anything …..I’m a artist .Just what I heard of the news made me think , It’s better to find something and solve the issue and think of ways and solutions for a world wide virus that needs stopping.

Crappy Valentine’s Day

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I’am the most Unluckyist person in the whole world. First my love life in a nut shell,

Teens: Single , rejected

20s: Single ,Rejected

30s Still single , Still a virgin at 36 ….but with a difference , I finally met my Soulmate in 2015 .

I’ve known for years he likes me it’s so flipping obvious signs of why,

1. He blushes

2. He looks and smiles at me

3.looks away ( he is shy)

4.awkward silences

5.copies my moves

6.looks at me

7.struggles when talking to me

8.shows off acts funny

9.treats me different from the other women.

That’s some If I put them all we will be here forever.

He has been in love with me 4 years but won’t admit it, which is awful , becouse this is such a nice special feeling .

I appreciate it becouse No one has ever loved me befour it’s means alot, I cannot understand why he hides ( TRIES TO HIDE BUT FAILS AS I KNOW) his feelings and does not want me to know.

It’s very frustrating and confusing .He is a sensative ,careing warm guy brown eyes which have a sparkle to them , his eyes show he loves me and he is me soulmate.

Any How I’am currently 36 years old a virgin. Never been woed romanced , never had passion , only sex I’ve seen is on HBOs on TV and Internet ….and sex books.

It gets wrose as you get older February the 14th depresses you ,I would love and be so proud to call him my boyfriend I love him so much , day he finally says he loves me will be the happyest day of my life , but for now and for last 4 years of knowing him I have suffered.

So to all men if you are hidding your feelings and not telling a woman your in love with her.

TELL HER , TELL HER JUST TELL HER .If you don’t tell her it will just eat you up inside and won’t help your life or hers .

Being in love makes you feel young and happy embrace it , feelings emotions are great wonderful things life’s to short , if you are in love say it ….yes it’s a risk but it is a risk wroth taking just do it!!!!

Confused by Offended people of Great Britain

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Recently I was reading a comment on The Manc group on Facebook…..well quite a few comments.

One man said why don’t we have our country flag up flying on buildings ect. I agree with him we should have our flag up proudly.

Anyway Other comments from (clearly brainwashed weak-minded people) said stuff like here’s your flag w**k over it.

People were being really offensive and nasty towards the flag of Great Britain and they live here.

I was heart broken reading these comments how can British people be offended by the union Jack that is our flag.

Our flag was intact designed by Mary Queen Of Scots soon James to join England , Scotland and Wales as A United Kingdom.

The Union Jack has been flown during many British Celebrations , war wins , sport wins .

It is a symbol of a country United a proud country of patriotic people .

How could you be offended by your own flag … If you really feel this way ,I think you should leave this country .

I’m so upset and heart broken by what I read , That I had to write this on my blog page…this is so awful….I will always be proud and show the flags of my country …..with tears in my eyes because fellow Brits being offended by our flag brakes my heart…….

Life Tuff decisions

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My parents keep talking about moving to Wales.

I do like Wales it’s peaceful , fresh and beautiful … complete opasit to Manchester…Also I love my parents very much and I’m close to them.

Also in 2015 I joined a art group and for first time in years I have friends and some sort of social life.

Which I haven’t had in many years. I fell in love with one Friend ,at first I didn’t …my grandad ghost guided me to him with flashing images and telling me he is his soulmate .

I tried to ignore it at first coz I’ve been single all my life and Unlucky in love. But I gave in , in the end , He makes me so happy , without him in my life I think I’d be really upset and down .

Happiest Ive been In Years is thank to art group friends and him, he makes me so happy, everytime I see him and Get a text from him I’m happy.

I don’t want to leave that, it’s so hard to make friends these days.

Without him I think I’d be really really sad , I’d also miss funny banter of art.

Ugh I don’t want to talk of Wales as a home to upsetting , to much to lose in Manchester 😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔 , right now my soul wants me to stay in Manchester as that is where my soulmate is and happyniess is, think I’ll have to chain my self to house so I can stay here.😭

Spiritual , religious and life after physical world

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I have been spiritual most of my life , first experience seeing my nan wave goodbye of staircase as a little girl ( that young was scared).

Teen experiences when I was depressed and stressed , I always felt like someone was in the room with me.

This was my guardian angel my beloved Grandad Barker , he protected me from myself , I was very depressed he kept me alive.

Over many years also have physic dreams , these see many things from places I may see in future ( which become dajavu ).Others are of people of events.

Also more recently since passing of mums best friend ( also spiritual), she gave message to me ( mental medium ) through my mind) saying goodbye and she was ok.

Soulmate part well I met him 2015 but again Grandad Barker helped me on this one he showed me flashing images and kept going on at me ” he is your soulmate,”.

I didn’t want to believe it coz I’ve been rejected by men all my life , 2016 while in Wales I just gave in , hopelessly I. Love …not with him yet …But my soul feel complete and I …can’t really explain the rest , it’s complex and spiritual .

I have a special connection with him, I see so much in his eyes ,We both get similar emotions together , our humour is similar .I love him so much I just hope we get together soon befour we get to old😭.

I believe in ghosts angel’s spirits, inside our physical body is our soul/spirit ,it is there and when your physical body dies this soul/spirit goes to another world of souls or stays as a ghost here to pass on messages , haunts ect.

All the above is connected .