Last night I had one of my deep thinking moments ,as sometimes happens before I go to sleep.I was thinking about loners .
There are two types I know of Negative and positive , negative ones usually become worse than the ones who bullied them and sometimes become murders.
Positive ones don’t take it out on people ,they stay on the side of love no matter what,but none of us chose this path.I find myself thinking at night WHY??
I have tried socialising always ok as a child and early teens I was shy and it was more difficult,but as I got older I got more confidence ,spoke out more and braved it all,I even stood up to be bullies.
A couple of bullies I asked why don’t you like me.?
They answered. “because you’re a loser” “Because you don’t go on a break “( because they never say with me!!)
Some side” just because?”
It’s hard finding a social group at the moment but there seems to be lots of them in Thornton cleveleys If summers are noisy this year my parents and I may retire there.
I also know I’m not the only one I know there are others like me with the same issues ,thinking at night why?we try to be nice friendly and good manners so it’s not us it’s them.
I’m 41 now and still no solid group of friends I have one friend who texts I’ve known him for almost 10 years now.
I’m not shy anymore I’m confident and speak my mind but also look out for people and stay caring and thoughts.
Despite all the nasty bad people I will always follow my heart and be carrying and loving and always be me.
I will not let it turn me into a nasty evil bully that’s the weak way of dealing with it.
As for the WHy? I cannot answer that one yet still figuring it out ,maybe god’s saving us for something , honestly I don’t know. But if you’re a loner who has not chosen to be don’t turn to the dark side stay strong loving and caring ,love is stronger than hate.
