Have to get this off my chest as it’s bothering me.
Today after my dentist appointment I felt I needed the loo,so went downstairs and saw it was engaged,so I waited outside for use.
Which I’ve thought since I was little was the normal polite thing to do and what people have been doing for years.
Anyway I sat down next to Dad in waiting after the loo ,and heard the secretary whispering to the other secretary that “the girl was waiting outside the loo …I don’t know if it is an autism thing”.
This made me feel like a right weirdo ,I also felt judged and offended and upset by it….something that people do every day…yet when I do it it’s weird?!!
Sadly this is why I guard myself …from people because I get judged so much ..I only let in my most trusted close people which is very few …count on one hand my most trusted people.
So in a way I’m avoidant with certain people who I don’t know too well ,because I don’t trust them …it takes Alot to earn my trust …being avoidant with strangers and people I don’t know I protect myself from being hurt….sadly this is with most I just seem to get judged and bullied Alot in myself ….ask why??
I’m not mean not nasty not perfect ….why be mean to me what have I done???
